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ga asik sih sebenernya nulis ini sambil dengerin lagu paling romnceu at this moment buat aku, ahaha. Mel Carter-hold me, thrill me, kiss me. suka lagu ini dari pas nonton running man, kepikiran terus. hhuhu. enak deh di puter aja.

hem, gatau aku setiap ngeliat TL facebook atau twitter itu dua orang pasti nongol. Mau nya apa? MAU GUE CLBK SONOH *wuu echa sotoy banget deh dari mana tau mereka putus?... yaa feeling aja sih*

siapa emang?

Yunjae.
Yunho
Jaejoong *Momiakuw*

suka bitter sweet, iya kata ini cukup pas buat labeling mereka. hubungan mereka kerasa paling dewasa dan manis ever... selama gue terjun di dunia pershipper-an.
iam definitely deep in love with them. so deep.

i surrender.

but it turns to be hurt, sad.
but that warm feels still remaining, until now.

back then they met at GFF met openly in public's eyes.
that day was my happiest day since i remember the last time i cheer up about them.

My yunjae.. our yunjae met at same place, time... not psed. they were real.

my tears was dropping. my heart pounding. my hands got sweat my eyes all wet. i keep crying and laughing. HEY WHAT ARE U GUYS DOING TO ME AFTER YEARS?
that was my first time to see them together as yunjaeshipper.

i thought i have been healing but i was wrong, it still bleeding.
back i thought some of cassie or yunjaeshipper are coward decided to not play their vid, song. i thought i was tough... as time pass. i know, something has change. the time we got about yunjae slowly decreasing.

some of them, lost their faith. it is too painful. i know it.. i know it now. i will always feel hurt and sad when i play the vid abt them. i need to collect my courage to play their video on my fav eps of holiday in saipan.

iam not that great at all.

it is hurt,
but that warm feeling will be still remain in my heart.

at least we know /eventhough i know sih they are okay.. even they are not lovers anymore/ they are good, chatted with families, happy to know yunjae healty, and they will get new friends there *I REALLY DISLIKES JEJE'S CIRCLE, jeje always emo, drunk, kelayapan, HUFFF IAM SOWREEEH :P* HUG *UHUK* STARING each other, cheer up for each other. I know this is the happines in OT5 fans, not only for yunjae.
/eventhough we got jae and yunho selcas with everyone, and never saw them in one pic. that's ok/


so yunho and jae happy ending? literaly? hahaha. i hope so.

yunjae maybe was not same as they was to be but they still the one in our heart.

aku (masih) cinta ke yunjae kok.
rasanya masih ada disini, meski tidak sehiper dahulu.
mereka akan tetap jadi bagian yang ngebahagiain buat aku. for this time /For this time loh/ ahaha.

yunho jaejoong fighting we always love you guys.

and after those wars yunjae shipper is great fandom ever. the though one in keep the faith to their otp.
yunho, jae, when u heard them growl, when u saw that banner, u know right your fans didn't go.

Yunjae still the best. ever.

cinta yang mungkin bakal hidup dalam kenangan paling dalam.

selalu sedih, tapi rasa bahagia nya ada juga. meski genre nya angst, tapi tetep aja jadi favorite.

LOVE YOU KIM JAEJOONG *momicintakuwrempongkuwmalesnyakuwbencinyakuwkawkucayang*

LOVE YOU JUNG YUNHO.

buat yunjaeshippe. kuwat ya, kita kudu kuwat. love you all. selalu bahagia. >~<

terlalu banyak yang kepengen di omongin dan terngiang-ngiang di kepala tapi tiap mau ditulis suka lupa wae. this writing wasn't for people kok but this is for my self, as note.

 iye gue egois. wkwk.

 hanewey, setelah punya ponakan tetiba i interesting in parenting, not into the marriage thing but only in parenting. since i like to watch superman returns, some of the parents esp song il gook showed the good technique to handle the kids. he didnt do the voice raising or violnce which is good and fo sho i copied him. tenang pak dapet pahala :D so, with the lack technique of parenting i apply it to my nepwhew, the method is the counting 1-10 when kid do something appropriate.

in this case i believe we (?) can give the kids freedom but also show the apropriate way. so as the grow old they know the proper way. um back to the topic, and i did it. at first attempt it didn't work, he keep doing "something that wasn't good for him" i counted 1-10 many times, and after.... more or less 4 months he gives me a response.. "Upa.. mau dimakan ga? kalo ga dimakan oba ambil makanan nya. Oba itung sampe 10, 1... 2.... 3.... 4......" back then he won't listen to me and keep messing with his food, but now.. "Upa mau dimakan ga? kalo ga dimakan oba ambil makanannya, 1....2...3.." then he will eat it fast and leave it. OMG!!! i was so speechless and OSM! you know that counting makes him think, which is he already knows about the options. and please correct me if i wrong in apply that technique. and i learn we better apply the rule to kids when they 2. maybe they won't really understand but it will inlfluence their behavior as the grow. thanks il kook apaa :D time by day i interacting with upa i realized that iam a coleris .. and i afraid if i become the otoriter mom, and demand towards my kids. i scared that iam not a good mom in the future. i know it is still far and maybe i was over thinking but hopefully i could someone who that my kids can rely. and hopefully my future husband is a really calm and mature one. HELLOH LOOK AT ME... xD

 oh btw my pc was broke so all my pict, (un) important files lost, my fanfictions lost.. AHAHAHHAHA T-T then....... ah forget,

 i....... ahahhaa wish me luck for my thesis. hopefully you can fulfill your hope. aamiin. *na chorom* xD selamat hari minggu~~~~~