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okeee ini  sebenernya adalah kumpulan dari video-video yunjae yang udh juga aku liat, but still they take my breath away when i saw them together~~ so cute, esp when their holding hands at 0.39-40 i imagine how yunho hold jae's hand~~ o godddddddd.... ヽ(*≧ω≦)ﾉ

Yunjae yah~ fighting ~~ and i hopefully jae will be back soon on twitter, i missing him much~ much muchhh~~~

good morning :D

JAElously is forever EPIC <3 love thisss~~ jaejoongie looks so cute when he jealous XDDDDDDDD

Selalu stuck di pertanyaan yang sama soal mimpi.

apa sih mimpi gue?
apa yang pengen dicapai?
yang diraih?

sumpah nyeseeel banget gue ga punya mimpi, tujuan gue hidup ini apa sih?
apa yang gue pengen lakukan abis kuliah?
jujur aja jurusan yang gue ambil ini bukan apa yang gue mau, meski jujur juga gue ga tau apa yang gue pengenin,

oke bohong sih ga ada yang engga gue pengenin, cuman ngerasa gagal aja sebagai orang yang diumur 19 masih ngutik-ngutik mikir, apa yang pengen diraih?

coba liat yang lain?
buchou aja contoh deketnya, dia pengen jadi arsitek, dia tau apa yang dia mau, hal apa yang harus dia lakukan, dan gara-gara mimpi tulah dia masuk kejurusan arsitek, karna dia tau apa goal nya dia.

gue?
gue ga tauuu~~ masih abu-abu, aduuh ngerasa fail banget, apasih gue ini.

yang ngerasa sama kayak gue, mending.. apalagi anak-anak yang masih smu, please kalian belum terlambat buat diem sejenak, mikirin apa yang kalian pengen dan kalian bisa, tanya sama diri sendiri.
semoga kalian dapetin jawaban nya :D

entahlah~~ doakan semoga perlahan mata hati, pikiran gue akan ngeh, nyadar tentang mimpi gue ini, dapet terwujud dan semoga Allah mengjinkan danmengabulkan nya, amiin :D

semangat-semangat -> meski gue tadi bete abis rada ga ngeh sama structure XD ah pokoknya gue bisa, aku harus bisa bismillahirrahmanirrahiim :DDD

Hm, oke jadi gini beberapa menit yang lalu gue twitteran dan temen gue bilang " Eca iiih kpn gedenya ? Wkwkwk"

ga ada masalah dengan pertanyaan disana, gue ga ngerasa kesinggung juga.
mungkin itu bener dikacamata orang, karena mungkin orang bisa lebih ngeliat kita dalam arti membaca kita dibanding orang lain, cuman dititik ini gue mikir apa iya gue ga pernah gede ya dalam arti pikiran nya? apa badan gede juga ga cukup? haha #slapforgetit

cuman oh kemonn~~ am i not mature enough?

oke sih ngaku gue juga ada sifat kayak kanak-kanaknyalah, wajar. cuman serius point of view setiap orang yang ngeliat gue apa selalu mendefinisikan atau considering iam as (cutie) "CHILD" ? seriously?

diumur yang 19 dan kalo ada jodohnya mungkin taun depan 20 gue masih dianggap, yah gini-gini aja, oke ga penting juga sih dengerin orang cuman~~~~~~ paradigma gue sabagai anak yang (terlihat) polos, lucu, budak leutik, manja (? surely i hate it) pas gue sma akan terus ada sampai saat ini? sampai gue kuliah?

"okay, berubah dong !"

cuman gue bingung, perubahan yang seperti apa, dalam hal apa?
bukan nya umur-umur segini pencarian tentang siapa kita apa mau kita, perlahan bakal muncul memaksa kan?

gue mencoba pelan-pelan meski ga tau juga sih apa iya keliatan atau engga. cuman kalo gue tiba-tiba maksain jadi "new" echa, gue~ itu bukan gue.
apa harus gue pake baju yang rada feminin dikit, ketawa-ketawa kayak cewe-cewe cantik anggun kebanyakan yang kalo ketawa nutupin mulutnya pake tangan (oke sebenrnya ini bagus sekali) atau bicaranya ga kayak budak leutik yang ngerekek minta sesuatu, seriuss gue ga ada maksud untuk terlihat seperti ini,atau itu.
iam just me, just my self.

tapi sih alhamdulillahnya, dari gue smp-sma (apalagi pas sma) bersykur banget sekelas sama temen-temen yang keliatan nya care gitu (entah kalo cuman ge-er) yang neghargain, ngelindungin dan akhirnya memperlakukan gue seperti anak polos yang harus dijaga, bahkan ketika nonon film dikelas dan ada adegan kissingnya pun gue dilarang nonton karena katanya belum cukup umur (oh kemon we are at same age), ah gue bersyukur bangeet~ 
tapi ini nih~~ kayaknya paradigma ini kebawa pas gue kuliaah~~
ah apa dosa gue? apaa?

masalahnya, gue (mungkin) ini bernilai "LUCU" saja, jadi people, okay atau cowok lebih spesifiknya ngeliat gue sebagai anak kecil adek yang lucu, dan nilai gue untuk menjadi seorang "CEWE" itu udah mereka coret dan yah cukup sampe sana.
ada ga yang ngeliat gue dari sisi lain?

so far~~~ i dunno :C

Love is painful although love is painful
Babocheoreom banbok that’s what i always do (such a pain)
But pain is beautiful it’s same as you
Huimangeun silmangeuro somangeun jeolmangeuro
Sarangi gipeojilsurok apeumeun deephae deo
Ibeonen dareul georan chakgak hogeun gidae uh

Gyeolguk.. Myeot nyeoni jinasseulkka yeongwoniran geon eopda
Gyeolguk.. Inyeoni anin geolkka dasi honjaga doeda
Gyeou.. Gyeou.. Gyeou.. Jinjja sarangeul chajeun jul aldaga
Gyeolguk.. Tto gyeolguk.. Ireoke kkeutnabeorinda

Nae maeumeun cheoeumbuteo geudaeroinde
Sangcheoro gadeukhae ijen geudaero inhae
Jeomjeom byeonhaega chagaun ne moksorie nado sigeogago
Meoreojineun uri sai doedolligien
Amu gamjeong eobsi seororeul maemdolgien
Hime gyeowo na ibyeoreul seonmulhago doraseo
I’’m fallin’ without you

Gyeolguk.. Nuguui jalmosilkka sarangiran geon eopda
Gyeolguk.. Ibyeori jineun geolkka jichyeo na jami deulda
Gyeou.. Gyeou.. Gyeou..Yeogikkajiga majimaginji urin
Gyeolguk.. Tto gyeolguk.. Tto dasi nami doena

Nae maeumeun cheoeumbuteo geudaeroinde
Sangcheoro gadeukhae ijen geudaero inhae
Jeomjeom byeonhaega chagaun ne moksorie nado sigeogago
Meoreojineun uri sai doedolligien
Amu gamjeong eobsi seororeul maemdolgien
Hime gyeowo na ibyeoreul seonmulhago doraseo
I’’m fallin’ without you
Yeah i’m fallin’ without you hey..

Let’s go
Cheoeumeneun mollatgetji geunyeoui bin jariga johatgetji
Haru iteul more jina bonaen dwieseoya biroso geunyeoga gomapgetji
Mollatgetji ne jasine daehae neo eobsi jal sal su itdadeon geu hwaksine daehae
Oneulgwa dareun naeil beolsseo 1, 2nyeon i siryeonmankeum neureonaneun miryeon
Sigani jinamyeon dallajigil gidohae
For you my baby

Nae maeumeun cheoeumbuteo geudaeroinde
Sangcheoro gadeukhae ijen geudaero inhae
Jeomjeom byeonhaega chagaun ne moksorie nado sigeogago
Meoreojineun uri sai doedolligien
Amu gamjeong eobsi seororeul maemdolgien
Hime gyeowo na ibyeoreul seonmulhago doraseo
I’’m fallin’ without you

Yeah I’m fallin’ without you..

English Translation:

Love is painful although love is painful.
Repeating like a fool. That’s what I always do.
But pain is beautiful. It’s same as you.
Hope turns into disappointment. Wish turns into despair.
As love deepened, pain deepened more
Illusion or expectation that this time, it’ll be different, uh.
eventually, how many years have passed, there is no “forever”.
eventually, We’re not meant to be, become alone again.
barely, barely, barely, I thought I finally found my love.
eventually, eventually, It’s ended again like this.

My mind is not changed from the very first
but my mind is now full of wounds cuz of you
Cuz of your cold voice, I’m changing, I’m getting cold as well
It’s hard to get back, between you and me
we are drifting farther and farther apart from each other
It’s hard to go around each other
So I gave parting to you as a gift and turned my back
I’m falling without you

Eventually whose fault is it. There’s no love.
Eventually I’m saying goodbye to you. Tired, I’m falling asleep.
barely barely barely, it seems like this is an end between us.
Eventually eventually, we’re becoming strangers.

My mind is not changed from the very first
but my mind is now full of wounds cuz of you
Cuz of your cold voice, I’m changing, I’m getting cold as well.
It’s hard to get back, between you and me
we are drifting farther and farther apart from each other
It’s hard to go around each other
So I gave parting to you as a gift and turned my back
I’m falling without you

Let’s go
I didn’t know at first. I liked the empty place which was hers.
After several days, at last I thanked her.
I didn’t know about myself
didn’t know about the confidence that I could live without you.
tomorrow which is different from today
1 year, 2 years. regret is getting deeper as much as the pain.
I pray everything will be changed as time goes
for you my baby.

My mind is not changed from the very first
but my mind is now full of wounds cuz of you
Cuz of your cold voice, I’m changing, I’m getting cold as well
It’s hard to get back, between you and me
we are drifting farther and farther apart from each other
It’s hard to go around each other
So I gave parting to you as a gift and turned my back

I’m falling without you

credit : Translation Credits: @LueKim , @HuisuYoon, phantomhive
Romanizations by: kpoplyrics.net

PS: another my favorite song on GD's new album >///< hearing the girl sounds like BOOM voice for me XDD

somebody can tell me, what happened to me?

where my desire, please~ i mean about my otp.
i just t_t i dunno~

you know, i really do wanna write something, but my mind could not earn plot so far.
why why?
sometimes, when i always stayed up for long, my brain will produce something. but for  now...

i dont wanna be a hypocrite, please my yunjae i hope you two always together, happy~ and hopely my desire will back to me soon.

i admit that my feeling toward them is feel like vogue~
since i heard about so fakin bad news recently, yeah you yjshipper exactly knewing it rite? nah..

okay i know, i bad since i got convow with teh Nda i get something that we must be not judge them, because actually we are stranger, we are dont know about the problem is.

the simply thing that we could do is just faith, yeah.. i collect my faith to Yunjae.
are you creazy this whole entire always all about My YUNJAE, but i just human.. sometimes i on that period the darkest period i called. when we down, when we tired about all. about our OTP yunjae.

haaaah~~ fighting fighting !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just miss when i missing this human @/mjjeje on twitter XD,
ah good nite :D

aku pengen nemu 'seseorang' yang pas dimana aku ngobrol ngaler ngidul, aku ga bakal takut ga bakalan nyambung, ga bakalan takut ga akan ada obrolan lain.. ngalir aja.

hm so far, i just found one.. XDDD~
 o god seriously lecturer ordering to try write on english~ but fisrt step is always not easy rite?

ah, wish me !!!

hahaha the tittle explain all huh? no?

what if i die? do people will cry for me? or just the contrary?
what my existence meaning for people, i mean they who live near me, knowing me or yeah even it's just like kind of " Yeah.. Ressa? okay i know her."

apa sih arti kehidupan aku buat orang?
oh yeh salah sih, harusnya aku udah mikir "Apa sih arti aku buat diri sendiri?"

Oke-oke entah kenapa gue pengen banget nulis ini,

1. gue males mandi (dan pada kenyataan nya gue emang mandi sih -___-)
2. gue males keramas (kenapa harus keramas? bisa ga keramas nya diwakilin aja gitu?)
3. gue males gunting kuku ( oh why? kenapa kuku bisa numbuh sendiri sih? males motongin nya, dan terlebih karena gue ga suka kuku panjang maka ini terpaksa harus dilakukan)
4. gue ngerasa ke ganggu kalo lagi makan tiba-tiba ada bunyi sms (ga tau, kalo dapet sms atau dneger bunyi hape pas makan selera makan langsung ilang, oh ya dan ini bukan salah siapa-siapa sih kalo pas gue makan ada sms, sok aja)

 Udah deh segitu aja dulu hahahaha XDD (ga penting? ih byiariiinnnn :PPP)

"lebih dari semua pikiran-pikiran egois, justru di ribetin menurut aku bukti kita dibutuhkan sama orang lain."

pesan pribadi tersembunyinya adalah, biasa nya saat gue udah mulai mushy, spoilt, whine berarti gue udah nyaman sama orang.
dan gue orang nya kalo udah deket sama seseorang.. rela di ribetin begitu rupa, sumpah. Yah sejauh ini XD.
dan justru saat gue ga diribetin balik gue ngerasa ga ada artinya, maksudnya.. kita deket (afeksi nya bukan hanya untuk lawan jenis atau dalam konteks pacaran/cinta-cinta an saja) dan saat ga dimintai tolong atau apapun gue sedikit bete (jujur aja). sumpah ini gue tipe M atau S sih sebenarnya? haha.

Kamu bisa andelin aku dalam hal apapun kok, serius.. semoga aja aku juga bisa bantuin.

dan ketika gue udah deket sama orang, kasarnya mah yah sok aja ribetin gue begitu rupa gue ikhlas tapi jangan sampe gue disadarkan bahwa gue begitu bodoh buat sampe diribetin begitu rupa. hm gimana yah? bingung kan bacanya?
jadi kasarnya.. jangan sampe aku ngerasa aku kecewa aja sama kamu. that's it. terdengar egois ya gue? hehe. tapi beneran ini yang gue rasain.

atau ini nih penjelasan singkat dari @TheDailyGemin

"A Gemini can give you their all and not think twice about it. Until you cross them and they take it all away like they never gave it to you."